We are what we see.

We are the fuel for the fire and then some. When you look in the mirror what do you see? Do you see someone who's positive and willing to do anything? Or do you see a failure? I"m not sure what i see. Sometimes i see a someone who's never going to be good enough, someone who's just not ever going to make it in life. Or, sometimes i may see someone who enjoys taking risks and willing to try anything and everything and who's not afraid to die, sometimes that is. I usually see my worst enemy, though, my self.

Sometimes I just sit and think about anything and everything. Could you tell? I wonder why people do some of the things they do. Is it because they aren't thinking or becasue they ae always thinking about themselve 110% of the time? Lord knows, but it really is hard to think before you act. I know quite a bit (alot) of teenagers (and adults as well) who do things and then when they are asked later they say, "I dont know why i did it." Well, its probably true because they weren't thinking when they were doing it. I dont blame them, though, i dont blame any of us. Sometimes we just do things just to do them, you know. Maybe the reason is because we can't think at that right moment. Yea, its sounds pretty bullshitty, but its probably true.

I like to think of what i think about abstract, analyzing (sp?) (a bit too much at times), or just weird. But sometimes, i guess it makes the reader think, too. Thinking can makes us feel alive just as much as it can make us feel dead. Barely there, barely breathing. You may think about life and living so much you may feel closer to death than you think. Or, you may think about death so much you may realize how alive you really are.

i Duno... just something to think about

Peace.